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Hooray for examiness!

May. 13th, 2008 | 10:18 pm
location: Pershore
mood: geeky geeky
music: Black Books playing on the PS2

Right, first exam of the season over and done with, 4 more to go!
Contrary to expectations, I think I did ok with this one. I was certainly writing for the full 3 hours which is usually a good sign, even better I think it was actually making sense!
So, yes. Greece and Rome exam is done, hoorah!
Hope everyone is well :) I'm doing almost nothing but revising in the sun...
Megan is getting broooooown!


Apr. 8th, 2008 | 01:49 pm
location: Uni library
mood: bouncy bouncy

No woman can say that she was loved
(And tell the truth) as Lesbia is by me.
Not bond was ever struck as fast, as true,
As the love in me I found in loving you.

If you get the chance, read some of his love elegy. That's one of the few, non-dirty, serious love poems I've found. There are several just ranting at Lesbia and calling her a bitch, kind of amusing :)

Procrastinating and reading roman love elegy...trying to decide whether the women they wrote to were actually real (usual argument) or whether they were mere characters. I'm heading toward the character argument...they seem to have almost no substance and they all act in veeeery similar ways.
Could just be the type of women these poets liked to chase, I suppose :)

Random update.

Mar. 13th, 2008 | 07:41 pm
mood: crazy crazy

I am actually going to kill my body clock. The damn thing keeps waking me up earlier and earlier. This I don't mind when i go to bed at areasonable time. But when I've been up reading til gone 3am, being woken up at 7 isn't a fun experience!
Although it is lovely to wake up and be happy about getting out of bed.

Anyway, for those of you who've wondered how I've been since the last entry, here is a brief update.
Things were nasty and upsetting but are now getting better. Mr. Thomas and I are now remembering how to -talk- to each other about things more interesting and useful for the maintainance of a relationship than how his day at work was.
As a result I'm a lot happier than I have been for quite a while. Things aren't perfect, but they're a damn sight better than they were.
Uni is going fantastically well. Like, reeeeeeally well. I'm averaging a first at the moment without killing myself with work, which is quite promising for next year. I'm also still enjoying what I'm learning about with is also promising!
Fire spinning is still fun.
Oh, I have work for the holidays! Paid work, not uni. I'm going to be doing relief care work at Bierton Hill, a day centre for adults with learning difficulties. I'm really looking forward to it, it'll be a lot more interesting than bar or waiting work!

Anyway I'm going to bugger off now, I'm due in the pub :)
Love all

Suetonius Book VI, Nero.

Jan. 29th, 2008 | 08:41 pm
location: Uni Library
mood: sleepy sleepy
music: Simon and Garfunkel

As requested, my loves, have some interesting allegations about the lovely Emperor Nero. All provided by Suetonius, although I did read some bits about him in a book on Roman love poetry. That was a couple of months ago and I can't remember anything concrete.

Fun stuff!
"...at first his acts of wantonness, lust, extravagance, avarice and cruelty were gradual and secret..." Sounds like a truly charming individual!

Cruelty first then:
Dressing up as common man in the evenings and 'playing pranks' seems to have been one of his little quirks. These pranks weren't really funny as they generally involved him beating up men as they walked home for dinner and actually stabbing anyone who was so boring enough as to resist and then throwing them into the sewers.
To this list we can add the charges of matricide, poison, torture and common murder of seemingly most of the patrician class.
Another favourite pastime involved breaking in and robbing shops, then selling the booty at the Palace market. Of course, being Emperor he was in dire need of some spare cash.

Wantonness and Lust:
Abusing freeborn boys and seducing married women are examples given in such a way as to suggest that this was fairly common for Nero, exceptions include 'debauching' one of the vestal virgins and almost-but-not-quite marrying a freedwoman. After bribing some ex-consuls to say she was of royal birth, of course. Can't have the Emperor going round consorting with freed slaves!
The most interesting part (for me, anyway!) is the news that he castrated a boy and actually married him, veil and dowry included. Apparently he was treated just like he was Nero's wife - he was dressed as an empress and carried round in Nero's litter when they went on trips to Greece.
In comparison, Oedipus was practically a saint. At least he didn't know who his mother was when the married. Nero seems to have openly "...desired illicit relations with his own mother." He was said to have kept a courtesan who looked like his mother and even more bizarrely is alleged to have had incriminating stains on his clothing whenever he had been riding in a litter with her.

He seemed to have been incredibly vain in regard to his singing - apparently when he was singing no-one was allowed to leave the theater, even for really urgent stuff, like, say giving birth. Suetonius even writes about people so bored of listening and applauding that they jumped from the walls as the gates were closed. Some even feigned death to escape as they had to be carried out for burial. This vanity led to him slander, abusing or even bribing those who were better than him.

There are various other bits and pieces, but I think I've got most of the interesting things :) I now have a strange urge to go and do more research on him...the perverse ones are always more interesting!

Later guys

Today was a happy day :)

Jan. 28th, 2008 | 10:12 pm
location: Pershore Road
mood: loved loved

As the title says, today was a happy day :)
I not only woke up without my alarm, but woke up happy and wanting to get out of bed. Out of the house by a reasonable time and actually got all my seminar reading done for my friday seminar before my lecture today (Nero sounds like he was a total...pervet?) so I feel very organised :D
Which is a good thing because I then spent the 3 hours til circus started in Joe's. It was fun though.
Circus was a enjoyable as ever, possibly more so because I actually got my courage up and had a go at fire poi! No burning/singeing of myself, but my skirt does have a couple of parafin marks which Alex assured me will come off in the wash.
So yes, it was fun.

Fire goes woooooosh!


Desire in Ancient Mesopotamia

Jan. 22nd, 2008 | 10:49 pm
location: Pershore Road
mood: happy happy

So, geek that I am, I was having fun doing research on ancient mesopotamia for my lecture on Friday. Yes, I said fun.
Anyway. Me being me, I turned to the chapters on women, love and sex once I'd read the general overview. There I came across the most hilarious literal translation I've found yet. It read as follows:
"...to get a woman to desire (lit. "cast her eyes on the penis of") a man."

It's possibly juvinile of me to have found that -quite- as amusing as I did. Still funny though...

Also, random fact: there's a very similar story in mesopotamian mythology to the biblical tale of Noah's Arc, yet there are enough differences to make it unlikely that the biblical version was copied from the much earlier (roughly 4000 years) mesopotamian story. So...does that mean that there may be some historical truth in the story of a man building a giant boat, saving his family and assorted livestock before the flood waters left him on top of a mountain?
Maybe. Given that mesopotamia was situated between the Tigris and the Euphrates, the area would have been subjected to a certain amount of severe flooding.

Here endeth the lesson.

I'm going to try and update a bit more regularly than I have been, I just forget how much I enjoy writing here :)
Later guys


Dec. 31st, 2007 | 07:48 pm
location: Edgcott
mood: contemplative contemplative

This year I...
read a hell of a lot.
remembered how to cook.
made myself ill from stress.
stopped eating.
started eating again.
stopped being a teenager.
didn't start that again.
cried. probably way too much.
was made speechless.
found out what an idiot my landlord is.
stopped one degree.
started another.
enjoyed it the 2nd time around.
didn't see Jan.
lost a good friend.
had more tonsilitis than was strictly needed.
learned to juggle (badly, but I can still juggle).
remembered how to play viola.
tried to break up with the Thomas.
failed miserably (we're doing better).
had lots of good sex.
made myself talk to strangers.
didn't kill my housemates.
fell out of love.
fell in love.
stayed in love.

Hope you all have a good 2008 :)


Dec. 2nd, 2007 | 10:13 pm
location: Brum, Pershore Road
mood: depressed depressed
music: Radio 1

I am confused.
Very confused.

I just suddenly have no idea what I want out of life, what I want to do after uni...so much confusion.
And I'm very scared that I'm going to end up hurting Mr.Thomas due to this confusion.

I have a conselling appointment on tuesday, maybe that will help.
I hope so :(
I don't want to feel like this any more!

Later guys

Life Update :)

Oct. 24th, 2007 | 05:25 pm
location: Brum, Pershore Road
mood: contemplative contemplative

Well, parents are at least talking to each other again :) Plus Mutti's moved back into her and step-dad's room rather than hiding in mine, which is also a good sign...
Things are getting better.

PonyCon on saturday! :D I can't wait, I'm getting soooo excited!
I still have 1 last custom to finish (should probably get her done today, just hair and eyes to do), then a little bit of pricing up, making sure they're all signed and then into the box!
Taking it on the train could be...interesting >:D

I'm trying to decide whether I want to work after Christmas.
There's a small chance they won't want me back, given I'm refusing to stay until we're "officially" allowed to leave - the rebel that I am, I'm leaving as soooon as term ends, which is a whole week before.
Yeah, I haven't told them that yet.
The thing is, it's only minimum wage and it's a maximum of 15 hours a week...I don't really need the money and I do resent that I have to give up a fair amount of weekend time.
Weekends are for the Thomas, damnit!
So...have to see how that one goes :) Have to see what my manager says when I tell her I'm leaving early for Christmas!

Right, I'm off to get more ponies sorted :)
Love all

The Destruction of a Family.

Oct. 18th, 2007 | 03:44 pm
location: Brum, Pershore Road
mood: crushed crushed
music: Radio 4

Ok, so maybe "destruction" is a bit too strong, but it just feels like my family is falling apart :(
Some of you know, but my step-brother came back to live with us last November. It was cool, he needed to save some money to go to the USA and the rent at his mum's was too high. He came back and properly moved in with us after Christmas because he wanted to save money to go to South Africa but that sort of never happened.
Small bit of background: him and his sister lived with us for a bit when they were children and my mum ended up having to throw them (and their dad) out. I think it nearly ruined their relationship.
Anyway, long story short is that he's stayed with us for waaaay longer than mum was ever expecting. She's become increasingly unhappy and stressed, to a lesser effect so have we. Her and my step-dad's marriage has suffered terribly, mainly as he just won't disipline the boy.
Apparently it all came to a head a couple of days ago and mum sat them both down and had a talk...the upshot of which is that he's moving out at the end of the month.
Hooray, problem solved, right?
He came home last night and completely ignored mum...step-dad went to have a talk with him about it and they started shouting. My brother wades in yelling that it's all mum's fault, then I think mum joined in as well.
I called her this afternoon.
She's hiding in my bedroom, trying to get my aunt's finances sorted out.
She's hiding, in her own house.
Kind of breaks my heart :(
So now, mum won't let step-dad talk to her and I'm scared that they're going to get a divorce.
Which definatly breaks my heart.

Later guys